Day 67 - Thwarted and Thwarted

Thursday, January 28, 2010

So today everything I had planned got thwarted.

My day was planned like this:

1. get up and workout
2. shower
3. pick up mom
4. go to my boob-squish (mammogram)
5. put on deodorant (you can't wear it until after you get your test)
6. work with mom on wedding stuff
7. meet up with Lisa to sort stuff out
8. come home and have dinner with Jon
9. get a good night's sleep

Here is how my day went:

1. got a HORRIBLE night's sleep
2. freeze and feel achy
3. wake up at 6am realizing I feel like crap
4. put on extra socks because I'm so cold
5. wake up at 6:05am realizing I really feel like crap
6. decide at 6:15am to finally bite the bullet and check the thermometer
7. coming to terms with the fact that I had a fever of 100.3 (this is actually high-ish for me since my normal body temp is 97.5-ish usually)
8. decide I have to cancel everything today and just sleep
9. call and reschedule boob-squish, Mom, and Lisa
10. Sleep on and off and finally break my fever

I began to feel better as the day wore on when my fever finally broke.  I have no idea why I had the fever or where it came from but I felt awful all night long.

So no workout for me today.  Guess that's a two-in-a-row for not working out.  Not my favorite trend but I'll deal with it.

There's always tomorrow...

Today's Goal: Get back to the routine = FAIL (yeah, fever thwarted that.  Stupid fever)

Tomorrow's Goal: Take it easy and don't push myself

Calories Consumed: 892

Workout = NONE

Day 50 - Listening to my body and trusting my body

Monday, January 11, 2010

So today was a day I did nothing.  Seriously.  I did nothing.  I slept in pretty late.  Considering shooting finished at about 5:00am this morning, I realized I needed to rest.

Jon and I had a bunch of errands to run after he went to work.

We did none of them.

As a matter of fact, he hadn't been feeling well all weekend, so he took the day off and just rested too.  I don't think we left the bed for more than 30 minutes.  We were both exhausted and just needed a reboot.

I had planned to get up and workout later in the day.

Yeah, that didn't happen.

I just couldn't get the energy up.

So, I guess today became a recovery day.

I'm trying to give myself some latitude.  I know being up all night and changing my sleep schedule can mess me up for a while.  When I worked at 4:00am at Starbucks I'd have to go to sleep at 9:00pm to be able to function the next day.  Then after being cut I'd have to go home and take a nap.  I was always tired.

I know I've been on a great track working out almost 6 days a week every week.  I don't want to get off-track.  It's so easy to just let myself "take a day".  I don't want to fall back into a bad habit.

I'm learning to just trust myself and my body.  I do feel better knowing I've worked out, so the rush I get from having DONE my workout will help me keep up the good habit, right?  And when I do need a break because my schedule is making me exhausted, I just need to give myself that time to rest.  I need to trust myself a little more.

It's hard to do that.  Especially when I've "failed" myself so many times before with my workouts.  I tend to come back but it's usually after a long break and the inconsistency yields little results.

But, I trust myself this time.  This time I am using only me (and YOU via this blog).  I'm not using any gimmicks or helpful things other than my desire to live my best life.

So, today I forgive myself and move on.  Tomorrow is another day.

Today's Goal: Drink at least 60 oz of water and take my multi-vitamin = Fail/SUCCESS (I think I drank 40 - 50 oz...maybe )

Tomorrow's Goal: Back on the workout schedule - cardio and weights and use BL9* to really motivate me if I need it.

Calories Consumed: 901

Workout: NONE = recovery

*BL9 = The Biggest Loser season 9 - GREAT motivator!

Day 19 - Weigh-in Week 3 and Trust

Friday, December 11, 2009

So today was a weigh-in day. I'm VERY happy to report I lost 2.2 lbs!!!! Huzzah! MUCH better than not losing last week, but I'm aware that sometimes my body is not always on the same time-table as I am. :)

To celebrate, I decided to work for my mom and plan out some Christmas/Chanukkah gifts. We're having our Chanukkah party on Sunday so I have to be finished with, at least, a few of those gifts by then!

I think today would be a good day to say that I use the word trust as a better depiction of how I feel I should "let go" than the word "faith". I find having "faith" usually starts me thinking about a whole mess of religious/spiritual things. If I say, "I'm just going to trust myself" or "trust my body will comply" I am not as unclear. Semantics can help when sifting through all the crap buried deep within the self and in the past. So, that's what I mean when I speak of "trusting myself". It helps me to stay focused and trust that I can do something.

Today's Goal: Be nice to myself at the weigh-in = SUCCESS! :)

Tomorrow's Goal: Make a healthy choice at lunch and take my multi-vitamin

Calories Consumed: 899

Workout:

Cardio:

46 minutes (jog/run, invisible jump rope)

3 - 1 minute sprints

3 minute warm up

3 minute cool down/stretch

Strength Training:

100 push-ups

50 back rows (15 lbs)

50 biceps curls (10 lbs)

50 triceps curls (10 lbs)

50 shoulder press (10 lbs)

50 chest flies (10 lbs)