Monday, February 1, 2010
So today was nice and somewhat uneventful.
I met with a friend for coffee. I was a bit worried about seeing her. We had a big miscommunication recently. I was hoping things would smooth over at this gathering.
It did. We had fun and a few laughs.
The biggest issue is how even though I'm not working full-time right now I'm so freaking busy. It seems confusing to people who know me when I say I'm not available. They cannot understand what could really be filling up my time.
Trust me. There is a LOT. But I will save that for another blog entry. :)
Suffice it to say I am very happy things went well with this friend, and I am hoping things go just as well with Lisa tomorrow evening. Although, we may not be meeting because she caught this horrible pneumonia/bronchitis/cold-flu thing and may not even be at work tomorrow. :( Sickness sucks.
Jumped back on the workout wagon again today. Went well and I felt good with that.
I read through Jillian Michael's Making the Cut and discovered that I need to change my ab routine a bit. Lately, I've noticed that my obliques are getting nice and taught, but I feel like I'm "expanding" or getting wider. According to Jillian, the obliques can DO that, especially if you have fat on top of the muscle (which I still do, stupid fat). Therefore, I'm not really doing myself much good widening if I'm trying to shrink. So I'm changing up my ab routine. Only regular crunches and reverse crunches. Less or no obliques. We'll see how this goes!
Today's Goal: re-read a bit of Making the Cut - Jillian Michael's book for ideas = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: Workout during the Biggest Loser #9! Woo hoo!
Calories Consumed: 1272
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
42 minutes jog/run
(1- 10 minute sprint)
8 minutes cool-down
Strength Training:
100 reverse crunches
100 regular crunches
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Showing posts with label strength. Show all posts
Sunday, February 7, 2010
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Day 69 - Crazy cleaning and (almost) Running into my Ex
Saturday, January 30, 2010
So today was an interesting day.
Interesting = frustrating, productive, stressful, and surprising.
Jon and I had the day planned out:
I wanted to workout
We had to go to Best Buy
We had to go to Walgreens or a grocery store
We had to clean the kitchen and the kitchen floor
For some reason we were both really on edge today. We usually work these things out but for some reason we were just on each other's last nerve.
That caused some major tension with some out-and-out fighting.
I HATE fighting and I sincerely hate fighting with Jon. It makes me feel sad and confused and all my stupid childhood fears come crashing down on me. It takes me a while to regroup and come back from those kinds of fights.
I'm sure it stems from never feeling like my side was heard in my family. I spent so many fights at home trying to be heard. It's very difficult. And when Dad fights, he fights dirty. He says something hurtful and surgical to shut it down so he can "win". My Mom has a tendency to do the same thing, but she also just shuts down completely. And she listens when my father is yelling at her to "hang up the phone" or whatever.
We definitely come from a family of fighters.
I end up feeling deflated and sad and just a big ball of ickiness.
Jon likes to stay in and fight. Sometimes I can't handle it. I can't think straight. My emotions get in the way of my thoughts and take over. I try to take a break so I can process but he doesn't always want to give that.
It can get messy.
However, after a long time in the car in the parking lot (isn't it always like that? Why is shopping so damned stressful?). We finally started to feel better and decided to finish our shopping at the grocery store near our house.
Well.
One of the most frustrating things about living in this city is how big and small it is. I have tried to avoid the Jewel grocery store near our house for a variety of reasons the last 3.5 years.
1. It's a smaller store so the selection isn't always great
2. the aisles are narrower and it's a more frustrating shopping experience
3. My ex shops there.
Yeah, really #3 is the top reason I like to avoid the grocery store. Although I hadn't ever run into him there. Until today.
To be honest, I didn't actually run into him. I saw him. I really don't think he saw me. It was kinda freaky. I also saw his girlfriend (she seems like a nice person and seems to care about him which is nice for him). She looks like a thinner version of me with smaller boobs. He has a type.
Sigh. It's not a big deal. Or it shouldn't be. But I really wish my ex and Jon's ex would just let it go, already and just agree to bury the hatchet.
Do any of these bad feelings help any of us?
Well, once that awkwardness happened Jon was my lifeline and we made jokes and laughed about how icky and weird it was. I'm grateful for his understanding my conflicted feelings about that whole thing. He's a pretty great guy. I'm pretty damned lucky. :)
After working out and dinner, we hit the ground running on that kitchen.
It's in fabulous shape! Go Jon. You rocked it!
Today's Goal: try to do full cardio and light abs if I can = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: watch my eating. Calories are getting slightly erratic
Calories Consumed: 958
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
47 minutes jog/run
8 minutes stretch/cool-down
Strength Training:
25 push ups
50 reverse crunches
50 regular crunches
50 alternating toe touches (on my back)
So today was an interesting day.
Interesting = frustrating, productive, stressful, and surprising.
Jon and I had the day planned out:
I wanted to workout
We had to go to Best Buy
We had to go to Walgreens or a grocery store
We had to clean the kitchen and the kitchen floor
For some reason we were both really on edge today. We usually work these things out but for some reason we were just on each other's last nerve.
That caused some major tension with some out-and-out fighting.
I HATE fighting and I sincerely hate fighting with Jon. It makes me feel sad and confused and all my stupid childhood fears come crashing down on me. It takes me a while to regroup and come back from those kinds of fights.
I'm sure it stems from never feeling like my side was heard in my family. I spent so many fights at home trying to be heard. It's very difficult. And when Dad fights, he fights dirty. He says something hurtful and surgical to shut it down so he can "win". My Mom has a tendency to do the same thing, but she also just shuts down completely. And she listens when my father is yelling at her to "hang up the phone" or whatever.
We definitely come from a family of fighters.
I end up feeling deflated and sad and just a big ball of ickiness.
Jon likes to stay in and fight. Sometimes I can't handle it. I can't think straight. My emotions get in the way of my thoughts and take over. I try to take a break so I can process but he doesn't always want to give that.
It can get messy.
However, after a long time in the car in the parking lot (isn't it always like that? Why is shopping so damned stressful?). We finally started to feel better and decided to finish our shopping at the grocery store near our house.
Well.
One of the most frustrating things about living in this city is how big and small it is. I have tried to avoid the Jewel grocery store near our house for a variety of reasons the last 3.5 years.
1. It's a smaller store so the selection isn't always great
2. the aisles are narrower and it's a more frustrating shopping experience
3. My ex shops there.
Yeah, really #3 is the top reason I like to avoid the grocery store. Although I hadn't ever run into him there. Until today.
To be honest, I didn't actually run into him. I saw him. I really don't think he saw me. It was kinda freaky. I also saw his girlfriend (she seems like a nice person and seems to care about him which is nice for him). She looks like a thinner version of me with smaller boobs. He has a type.
Sigh. It's not a big deal. Or it shouldn't be. But I really wish my ex and Jon's ex would just let it go, already and just agree to bury the hatchet.
Do any of these bad feelings help any of us?
Well, once that awkwardness happened Jon was my lifeline and we made jokes and laughed about how icky and weird it was. I'm grateful for his understanding my conflicted feelings about that whole thing. He's a pretty great guy. I'm pretty damned lucky. :)
After working out and dinner, we hit the ground running on that kitchen.
It's in fabulous shape! Go Jon. You rocked it!
Today's Goal: try to do full cardio and light abs if I can = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: watch my eating. Calories are getting slightly erratic
Calories Consumed: 958
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
47 minutes jog/run
8 minutes stretch/cool-down
Strength Training:
25 push ups
50 reverse crunches
50 regular crunches
50 alternating toe touches (on my back)
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Day 57 - set-sick and determined
Monday, January 18, 2010
So today I had a shorter day on the set. I started around 10:00 AM and was released around 3:00 PM. It was a fun day. However, upon getting released from the set I got depressed.
I really feel like when I walk on to the set I'm actually "home". It's such a comforting feeling to be there. I'm happy and content and don't feel like I'm "working" in any way. Even though we keep ridiculous hours and I often need an amazing amount of sleep to counteract the time/energy it takes, I'd do it over and over again just to be a part of this incredible experience.
I love this work. I love that this is my job. I love saying that I'm a working actor and having something really impressive to show for it.
So leaving I feel "set-sick". I'm homesick for the work, the people, the art.
To deal with that, I'm back trying to be on-track with my workouts and eating.
Of all the amazing things about being on set, I notice that I drink less water and am not as careful about noting every single calorie I put in my mouth. While I'm not being an idiot about choices, I'm still grazing more than I'm writing. It's tough when you are grabbing a quick bite between shots. It's the nature of the game.
But I'm back...at least for a few days. Hopefully it's enough to start the scale moving down. :) While I'm very proud of my work, I still have a ways to go before I hit my true goal.
Today's Goal: jump into the full routine = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: Keep on that water!
Calories Consumed: 1009
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
40 minutes jog/run
(3 - 5 minute sprints)
8 minutes cool down/stretch
Strength Training:
50 push ups
100 regular crunches
100 reverse crunches
100 oblique crunches (each side)
So today I had a shorter day on the set. I started around 10:00 AM and was released around 3:00 PM. It was a fun day. However, upon getting released from the set I got depressed.
I really feel like when I walk on to the set I'm actually "home". It's such a comforting feeling to be there. I'm happy and content and don't feel like I'm "working" in any way. Even though we keep ridiculous hours and I often need an amazing amount of sleep to counteract the time/energy it takes, I'd do it over and over again just to be a part of this incredible experience.
I love this work. I love that this is my job. I love saying that I'm a working actor and having something really impressive to show for it.
So leaving I feel "set-sick". I'm homesick for the work, the people, the art.
To deal with that, I'm back trying to be on-track with my workouts and eating.
Of all the amazing things about being on set, I notice that I drink less water and am not as careful about noting every single calorie I put in my mouth. While I'm not being an idiot about choices, I'm still grazing more than I'm writing. It's tough when you are grabbing a quick bite between shots. It's the nature of the game.
But I'm back...at least for a few days. Hopefully it's enough to start the scale moving down. :) While I'm very proud of my work, I still have a ways to go before I hit my true goal.
Today's Goal: jump into the full routine = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: Keep on that water!
Calories Consumed: 1009
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
40 minutes jog/run
(3 - 5 minute sprints)
8 minutes cool down/stretch
Strength Training:
50 push ups
100 regular crunches
100 reverse crunches
100 oblique crunches (each side)
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
Day 44 - Inspiration and Perspiration
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
So today was awesome! Work was "meh" but after work was awesome!
First, I got 60 oz of water in before 5pm today! AND I had filled up the water bottle again to have for my work out! I knew I'd hit that 80 oz today and I totally did! I smashed it! I filled the water up AGAIN for dinner! So all in all I probably got 90 oz in today. GO ME.
Second, my workout was awesome! Yes, I watched another episode of the West Wing! And I did my cardio. I did a different grouping of sprints and I really enjoyed it. Man, the West Wing totally helps get me through my cardio. :) I'll have to find another show to take its place when I finish the series!
Third, I finished the cardio well enough before 7pm which was my ultimate goal. Today was the first episode of Season 9 of The Biggest Loser. If you wanna talk about inspiration. Wow. These people and the challenges and the entire process blows me away. Jon and I don't have TiVo or a working VCR so Tuesdays are really my day to be certain I can unwind and watch my ONE important reality show. I cried at least 7 times last night. There's so much pain, but there is so much accomplishment too! LOVE THAT.
I finished my strength training during the first hour of the show. Jon made dinner and we watched the weigh-ins.
After that we caught up on the news via MSNBC and Keith Olbermann/Rachel Maddow and then bed! Really great day. I felt fantastic. :)
Today's Goal: Drink 80 oz of water = SUCCESS!!!!
Tomorrow's Goal: Do my full workout
Calories Consumed: 1080
Workout:
Cardio:
3 mintues warm up
45 minutes jog/run/invis. jump rope/skaters
(5 - 1 minute sprints - skaters)
(2 - 5 minute sprints - invis. jump rope/fast-runs)
8 minute cool down
Strength Training:
50 back rows (15 lbs each hand)
50 biceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 triceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 shoulder press (12 lbs each hand)
50 chest flies (12 lbs each hand)
So today was awesome! Work was "meh" but after work was awesome!
First, I got 60 oz of water in before 5pm today! AND I had filled up the water bottle again to have for my work out! I knew I'd hit that 80 oz today and I totally did! I smashed it! I filled the water up AGAIN for dinner! So all in all I probably got 90 oz in today. GO ME.
Second, my workout was awesome! Yes, I watched another episode of the West Wing! And I did my cardio. I did a different grouping of sprints and I really enjoyed it. Man, the West Wing totally helps get me through my cardio. :) I'll have to find another show to take its place when I finish the series!
Third, I finished the cardio well enough before 7pm which was my ultimate goal. Today was the first episode of Season 9 of The Biggest Loser. If you wanna talk about inspiration. Wow. These people and the challenges and the entire process blows me away. Jon and I don't have TiVo or a working VCR so Tuesdays are really my day to be certain I can unwind and watch my ONE important reality show. I cried at least 7 times last night. There's so much pain, but there is so much accomplishment too! LOVE THAT.
I finished my strength training during the first hour of the show. Jon made dinner and we watched the weigh-ins.
After that we caught up on the news via MSNBC and Keith Olbermann/Rachel Maddow and then bed! Really great day. I felt fantastic. :)
Today's Goal: Drink 80 oz of water = SUCCESS!!!!
Tomorrow's Goal: Do my full workout
Calories Consumed: 1080
Workout:
Cardio:
3 mintues warm up
45 minutes jog/run/invis. jump rope/skaters
(5 - 1 minute sprints - skaters)
(2 - 5 minute sprints - invis. jump rope/fast-runs)
8 minute cool down
Strength Training:
50 back rows (15 lbs each hand)
50 biceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 triceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 shoulder press (12 lbs each hand)
50 chest flies (12 lbs each hand)
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Day 40 - Weigh-in week 6 and movies
Friday, January 1, 2010
So today is NEW YEARS DAY! YAY! We made it to 2010! :) This is going to be a great year for me. I can feel it. I'm making positive changes in my life all around. I will be leading a happier and more productive life. :) Yay me!
So, the weigh-in. Surprisingly, I lost 2 oz. Again! While I'm THRILLED I actually lost weight considering I thought I might gain, I'm slightly confused as to why the weight is slowing down so much.
I'm thinking about trying an experiment and eating a few extra calories per day.
I wanted to get an idea of how many calories I was expending for my workouts. In most cases, if I do my jog/run for 45 minutes I'm expending about 370 calories. And for the weight-lifting I'm probably expending about 140. So that means about 510 calories, give or take. So, I need to be eating enough to cause a deficit but still not be in starvation mode, right?
I still have no idea how much I should be eating with the deficit. I THINK it's about 1200? Maybe? Ugh. I'm only 5'2". Maybe I DO need to go see a nutritionist to make sure I'm doing everything correctly. I know the food I'm eating is really good. It's clean and almost always fresh/homemade. I almost never eat processed food and I don't eat fast food. So, all in all, I should be looking great, right?
Anyhow, that's the next step. I have to try and shake things up a bit. Maybe my body thinks I'm starving it. As much as I'm afraid to add calories, I think I need to. At least for a week and see how it fairs.
Jon and I have been watching movies all day. He made Hopping John and collards. MMMMM! His collards are fantastic. For those of you who know southern cooking you know, traditionally, Hopping John and collards are made with pork. I don't eat pork (I'm strangely allergic), so Jon made me a vegetarian version! He's so wonderful. And the food was amazing.
You eat these things on New Year's Day. The Hopping John is for luck and the collards are for money! I could use both of those things this year! Go 2010!
After that, we spent the afternoon and evening watching movies and just hanging out together. A perfect start to the new year!
Today's Goal: Jump back into the workout adding 12 lbs for the upper body = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: Focus on getting 1350 calories -
Calories Consumed: 1171
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm up
47 minutes jog/run/invis jump rope
(5 - 2 minute sprints)
8 minutes cool down/stretch
Strength Training:
50 back rows (15 lbs each hand)
50 biceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 triceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 chest flies (12 lbs each hand)
50 shoulder press (12 lbs each hand)
I did my entire upper body with 12 lbs in each hand! I rock! :)
So today is NEW YEARS DAY! YAY! We made it to 2010! :) This is going to be a great year for me. I can feel it. I'm making positive changes in my life all around. I will be leading a happier and more productive life. :) Yay me!
So, the weigh-in. Surprisingly, I lost 2 oz. Again! While I'm THRILLED I actually lost weight considering I thought I might gain, I'm slightly confused as to why the weight is slowing down so much.
I'm thinking about trying an experiment and eating a few extra calories per day.
I wanted to get an idea of how many calories I was expending for my workouts. In most cases, if I do my jog/run for 45 minutes I'm expending about 370 calories. And for the weight-lifting I'm probably expending about 140. So that means about 510 calories, give or take. So, I need to be eating enough to cause a deficit but still not be in starvation mode, right?
I still have no idea how much I should be eating with the deficit. I THINK it's about 1200? Maybe? Ugh. I'm only 5'2". Maybe I DO need to go see a nutritionist to make sure I'm doing everything correctly. I know the food I'm eating is really good. It's clean and almost always fresh/homemade. I almost never eat processed food and I don't eat fast food. So, all in all, I should be looking great, right?
Anyhow, that's the next step. I have to try and shake things up a bit. Maybe my body thinks I'm starving it. As much as I'm afraid to add calories, I think I need to. At least for a week and see how it fairs.
Jon and I have been watching movies all day. He made Hopping John and collards. MMMMM! His collards are fantastic. For those of you who know southern cooking you know, traditionally, Hopping John and collards are made with pork. I don't eat pork (I'm strangely allergic), so Jon made me a vegetarian version! He's so wonderful. And the food was amazing.
You eat these things on New Year's Day. The Hopping John is for luck and the collards are for money! I could use both of those things this year! Go 2010!
After that, we spent the afternoon and evening watching movies and just hanging out together. A perfect start to the new year!
Today's Goal: Jump back into the workout adding 12 lbs for the upper body = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: Focus on getting 1350 calories -
Calories Consumed: 1171
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm up
47 minutes jog/run/invis jump rope
(5 - 2 minute sprints)
8 minutes cool down/stretch
Strength Training:
50 back rows (15 lbs each hand)
50 biceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 triceps curls (12 lbs each hand)
50 chest flies (12 lbs each hand)
50 shoulder press (12 lbs each hand)
I did my entire upper body with 12 lbs in each hand! I rock! :)
Thursday, December 31, 2009
Day 38 - Energy and Competition
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
So today I rolled out of bed with minutes to spare to get to work. I don't know how it happened! Thank goodness I'd packed my lunch the day before because I needed any extra moments to feed the dog and grab my stuff together before nearly being late.
As it happened, I forgot to bring utensils for my lunch and snacks. This wasn't as awful as it could have been since Jon'd made these personal gluten-free 8" pizza's last night. I ate 1/2 of mine, thinking I'd bring the other half for lunch. This was, essentially, finger food so that wasn't too bad. I just couldn't eat my greenbeans nor could I eat the veggie casserole. Thankfully I had 2 oranges. Ah! Food you can eat with your hands, solely!
It sufficed.
I drank a ton of water today too. 80 oz!! :)
So, my energy has been sort of blech lately. I don't drink coffee and I really try to eat clean, healthy food, but for some reason I'm not feeling the pep. Although, I feel less "sluggish" than when I wasn't watching my portions or eating anything I wanted. So I'm not sure if its too little on calories or too little on protein or something. I'm just not certain where it lies. It's like I have to "rev up" to do my workouts. And I do get them done, they just feel like they are often endless!
I have noticed when I am in a competition, I will try and do my best to win. Especially if I enjoy the activity or enjoy the "battle". A good example of this would be the game Cribbage. I like that game. I like games in general. However, I think because it's just for fun, I don't get emotionally involved. I used to. But, what irks me is the competitive nature of some of my friends. I find it can get in the way of my journey. I'm fairly supportive of someone when they are trying to accomplish something. I send out love and strength and kind words. However, I'm noticing there are people who are incredibly supportive and I really thank them for their awesome words of encouragement. They mean THE WORLD to me. But others have made less-than-supportive comments like, "Oh now, why would you need to lose weight"? Or, "Don't become anorexic!" Or, "Don't make me pig out alone!" Sometimes they just press me for information (like wanting to know the number of my actual weight), which make my instincts perk up and ask why they want to know? Why is that particular information relevant?
Now, I don't want to say these people are all toxic or bad. I think I've gotten rid of those types of people long ago. But as far as feeling comfortable with disclosure on information or process or what have you, I find I'm playing close to the vest.
Upon discussing the idea of competition, I notice these people to be proud of their competitive nature. And I think some competition is healthy. Some. I think some competition is destructive. I don't want to feel compelled to compare weight/size/calories. I think it breeds a bad ground for support and love. Can't we all just agree we're on our own journey? It's not about who got there first but that we all get there at our own time?
I know I'm unique in that I'm blogging, daily, about this approach. I guess, along with the personal demons I face I also have to learn how to handle the other people in my life.
The one thing about getting involved with the self, is it makes it easy to not make time for everyone else. That was my modus operandi. But, balance is the key. Time for me AND time for others.
I know I'll accomplish this. It just feels awkward so far. Sort of like a puppy with big feet trying to negotiate walking/running.
On the really plus side: I moved to doing 12 lbs each hand for all my leg squats!! :)
Today's Goal: Get back in the workout routine = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: Do three 2 minute sprints for cardio
Calories Consumed: 1148
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm up
42 minutes jog/run/kick/invis.jump rope
(4- 2 minute sprints)
8 minutes cool down/stretch
Strength Training:
50 push ups
Slim in 6pack abs routine - 11 min
100 regular squats (12 lbs each hand)
100 regular pulsed squats (12 lbs each hand)
100 plie squats (12 lbs each hand)
100 pulsed plie squats (12 lbs each hand)
So today I rolled out of bed with minutes to spare to get to work. I don't know how it happened! Thank goodness I'd packed my lunch the day before because I needed any extra moments to feed the dog and grab my stuff together before nearly being late.
As it happened, I forgot to bring utensils for my lunch and snacks. This wasn't as awful as it could have been since Jon'd made these personal gluten-free 8" pizza's last night. I ate 1/2 of mine, thinking I'd bring the other half for lunch. This was, essentially, finger food so that wasn't too bad. I just couldn't eat my greenbeans nor could I eat the veggie casserole. Thankfully I had 2 oranges. Ah! Food you can eat with your hands, solely!
It sufficed.
I drank a ton of water today too. 80 oz!! :)
So, my energy has been sort of blech lately. I don't drink coffee and I really try to eat clean, healthy food, but for some reason I'm not feeling the pep. Although, I feel less "sluggish" than when I wasn't watching my portions or eating anything I wanted. So I'm not sure if its too little on calories or too little on protein or something. I'm just not certain where it lies. It's like I have to "rev up" to do my workouts. And I do get them done, they just feel like they are often endless!
I have noticed when I am in a competition, I will try and do my best to win. Especially if I enjoy the activity or enjoy the "battle". A good example of this would be the game Cribbage. I like that game. I like games in general. However, I think because it's just for fun, I don't get emotionally involved. I used to. But, what irks me is the competitive nature of some of my friends. I find it can get in the way of my journey. I'm fairly supportive of someone when they are trying to accomplish something. I send out love and strength and kind words. However, I'm noticing there are people who are incredibly supportive and I really thank them for their awesome words of encouragement. They mean THE WORLD to me. But others have made less-than-supportive comments like, "Oh now, why would you need to lose weight"? Or, "Don't become anorexic!" Or, "Don't make me pig out alone!" Sometimes they just press me for information (like wanting to know the number of my actual weight), which make my instincts perk up and ask why they want to know? Why is that particular information relevant?
Now, I don't want to say these people are all toxic or bad. I think I've gotten rid of those types of people long ago. But as far as feeling comfortable with disclosure on information or process or what have you, I find I'm playing close to the vest.
Upon discussing the idea of competition, I notice these people to be proud of their competitive nature. And I think some competition is healthy. Some. I think some competition is destructive. I don't want to feel compelled to compare weight/size/calories. I think it breeds a bad ground for support and love. Can't we all just agree we're on our own journey? It's not about who got there first but that we all get there at our own time?
I know I'm unique in that I'm blogging, daily, about this approach. I guess, along with the personal demons I face I also have to learn how to handle the other people in my life.
The one thing about getting involved with the self, is it makes it easy to not make time for everyone else. That was my modus operandi. But, balance is the key. Time for me AND time for others.
I know I'll accomplish this. It just feels awkward so far. Sort of like a puppy with big feet trying to negotiate walking/running.
On the really plus side: I moved to doing 12 lbs each hand for all my leg squats!! :)
Today's Goal: Get back in the workout routine = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: Do three 2 minute sprints for cardio
Calories Consumed: 1148
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm up
42 minutes jog/run/kick/invis.jump rope
(4- 2 minute sprints)
8 minutes cool down/stretch
Strength Training:
50 push ups
Slim in 6pack abs routine - 11 min
100 regular squats (12 lbs each hand)
100 regular pulsed squats (12 lbs each hand)
100 plie squats (12 lbs each hand)
100 pulsed plie squats (12 lbs each hand)
Monday, December 28, 2009
Day 35 - Plan and Decide
Sunday, December 27, 2009
So today Jon and I planned to go to Target and finish up some shopping we'd been meaning to get done for a couple of weeks. We woke up at a decent hour and I decided I wanted to workout first so I could have the evening to just chill out. It was a good plan!
Got my entire workout in and then we finished up our crazy shopping trip. We have a few last minute gifts to send out and then we are finished!
I have decided to try and make a general list for the week in hopes that I can feel a bit more organized in my weekly scheduling. Some of it is for the apartment (chores Jon and I have to get done but always find overwhelming when they've not been planned), and some are career/work/personal oriented. Just for me.
I'm hoping having a list will help to keep me focused. There are definitely days when I feel like I am barely making it through, time-wise, and I have had to avoid seeing people to make sure I'm getting my workouts/food/chores in. I think with a little extra planning I will be able to coordinate things so that if there's a spontaneous get-together I can actually meet up with someone. Which would be nice! :)
Jon and I have started filling out a book called "All About Us". It's a neat little book that has questions and blanks that we fill out together and helps to facilitate conversation(s) about our relationship. In most cases we've realized we've discussed these things but it's nice to have confirmation that feelings haven't changed or our understandings were just assumptions. Etc. It's been a neat thing to do to prepare for this marriage thing. :)
Other than that, all is well here. :)
Today's Goal: Get back in the workout routine = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: DRINK WATER! (I don't think I'm drinking enough. Stomach pains/heartburn and headaches are probably a good indicator I'm not.)
Calories Consumed: 1047
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
45 minutes jog/run/kicks/invisible jump rope
(6 minutes of sprints/ 4 minutes of kicks)
8 minutes of cool-down/stretch
Strength Training:
Slim in 6pack abs - 11 minutes
100 regular squats (10 lbs each hand)
100 regular pulsed squats (10 lbs each hand)
100 plie squats (10 lbs each hand)
100 plie pulsed squats (10 lbs each hand)
So today Jon and I planned to go to Target and finish up some shopping we'd been meaning to get done for a couple of weeks. We woke up at a decent hour and I decided I wanted to workout first so I could have the evening to just chill out. It was a good plan!
Got my entire workout in and then we finished up our crazy shopping trip. We have a few last minute gifts to send out and then we are finished!
I have decided to try and make a general list for the week in hopes that I can feel a bit more organized in my weekly scheduling. Some of it is for the apartment (chores Jon and I have to get done but always find overwhelming when they've not been planned), and some are career/work/personal oriented. Just for me.
I'm hoping having a list will help to keep me focused. There are definitely days when I feel like I am barely making it through, time-wise, and I have had to avoid seeing people to make sure I'm getting my workouts/food/chores in. I think with a little extra planning I will be able to coordinate things so that if there's a spontaneous get-together I can actually meet up with someone. Which would be nice! :)
Jon and I have started filling out a book called "All About Us". It's a neat little book that has questions and blanks that we fill out together and helps to facilitate conversation(s) about our relationship. In most cases we've realized we've discussed these things but it's nice to have confirmation that feelings haven't changed or our understandings were just assumptions. Etc. It's been a neat thing to do to prepare for this marriage thing. :)
Other than that, all is well here. :)
Today's Goal: Get back in the workout routine = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: DRINK WATER! (I don't think I'm drinking enough. Stomach pains/heartburn and headaches are probably a good indicator I'm not.)
Calories Consumed: 1047
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
45 minutes jog/run/kicks/invisible jump rope
(6 minutes of sprints/ 4 minutes of kicks)
8 minutes of cool-down/stretch
Strength Training:
Slim in 6pack abs - 11 minutes
100 regular squats (10 lbs each hand)
100 regular pulsed squats (10 lbs each hand)
100 plie squats (10 lbs each hand)
100 plie pulsed squats (10 lbs each hand)
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Day 22 - Sick and grateful
Monday, December 14, 2009
So today I still felt like country-fried poop so I didn't get as much of a workout in as I'd have liked. I definitely did all my weights but did NOT do any cardio. Grrrrr. I really want to do cardio but I'm having trouble breathing as it is. Don't know how helpful gasping for air will be for me. Hopefully tomorrow... I've got to be on the mend, right?
I did, however, get all my voice over stuff done for this week. Tomorrow I think I can start prepping for the week 2 process. It's actually getting really fun to do this promoting thing. I can't tell you how helpful it's been to have a PROCESS. Marketing is NOT my strong suit so I need to know a step-by-step when it comes to anything about it.
I'm feeling grateful for some things these days:
- my plant from Kristin's memorial is still alive
- my father's tests were good (cancer hasn't grown)
- people will surprise you, and I had a couple good ones today
- Jon
- Family
- My sister-in-law and our new venture
- My amazing friends who are wonderful
- putting my needs first
These are just a few things but I thought they were appropriate.
Today's Goal: Get back on the workout routine = Success - mostly!
Tomorrow's Goal: Try to get at least 10 minutes of cardio in
Calories Consumed: 881
Workout:
Cardio: NONE
Strength Training:
100 push-ups
100 back rows (10 lbs each side)
100 biceps curls (10 lbs each side)
100 triceps curls (10 lbs each side)
100 shoulder press (10 lbs each side)
100 chest flies (10 lbs each side)
Monday, December 14, 2009
Day 21 - Chanukkah rushing and rehearsal
Sunday, December 13, 2009
So today was our annual family Chanukkah party. Jon and I dragged ourselves out of bed early in the morning and got ready to head to the suburbs.
Jon has been battling a cold for the last few days which is getting worse. I was feeling a little icky yesterday but, today, it's really starting to come out in force. That's not good.
Party was a success, but I had to rush out to get Jon home before my rehearsal for the film. I hate rushing around. It puts me in a state of utter anxiety and I have a tough time calming down before I have to get to my next thing. Normally, I've learned to not schedule myself so close, but this one couldn't be helped.
Rehearsal went great. I really love working with the director and chatting with the cast members. It's truly fun and inspiring.
By the time I left rehearsal, I was exhausted and sniffling a LOT. I felt terrible. I got NO workout in, and just wanted to crawl into bed. So, I didn't really eat a dinner. I had a snack! Not a great end to the day. Sickness completely derailed my plans to workout when I got home. :(
Oh well, hopefully a good night's sleep will help.
Today's Goal: Take my mulit-vitamin = SUCCESS!
Do cardio = Fail. (sickness, yo)
Tomorrow's Goal: if I'm not feeling sick, get back on workout routine track!
Calories Consumed: 1023
Workout = None
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