Tuesday, February 25, 2010
So today was filled with busy-ness. Heh. business. Busy-ness.
Yeah. I'm exhausted. I've been busting out wedding stuff, film stuff, rehearsal stuff, life stuff...I'm really wiped out!
But I can't sleep.
Well, I can but I'm sort of afraid to go to sleep.
I'm afraid of my dreams.
There. I said it. I'm afraid of my dreams.
I'm really sick of having dreams about my ex and Jon's ex. I know that a LOT of it is wedding-related. I also know that it's my body's way of working stuff out. I know, even more, that it's much easier for my brain and self to deal with THEM than deal with the other wedding frustration (read: my awful uncle) which I am subjected to dealing with and really don't want to. That situation is it's own "living nightmare".
I'd prefer to run into either one of our exes. Twice. Than deal with my uncle coming to my wedding. But that is a whole other blog story. One I'll examine as the wedding day approaches and my anxiety explodes.
Yay! Things to look forward to! :)
My friend, Debbie, is having her baby in March and I cannot believe March is around the freaking corner! Soooo close!
Ok. It's time for me to wrap up and suck it up and go to bed. I'll be no good for anyone if I don't have sleep.
I have a full list of things to do tomorrow!
TAXES are on that list... let's see if I can hop to it!
Calories Consumed: 982
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
35 minutes cardio
(2 - 1 minute sprints; 1 - 5 minute sprint)
8 minute cool down
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Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Day 67 - Thwarted and Thwarted
Thursday, January 28, 2010
So today everything I had planned got thwarted.
My day was planned like this:
1. get up and workout
2. shower
3. pick up mom
4. go to my boob-squish (mammogram)
5. put on deodorant (you can't wear it until after you get your test)
6. work with mom on wedding stuff
7. meet up with Lisa to sort stuff out
8. come home and have dinner with Jon
9. get a good night's sleep
Here is how my day went:
1. got a HORRIBLE night's sleep
2. freeze and feel achy
3. wake up at 6am realizing I feel like crap
4. put on extra socks because I'm so cold
5. wake up at 6:05am realizing I really feel like crap
6. decide at 6:15am to finally bite the bullet and check the thermometer
7. coming to terms with the fact that I had a fever of 100.3 (this is actually high-ish for me since my normal body temp is 97.5-ish usually)
8. decide I have to cancel everything today and just sleep
9. call and reschedule boob-squish, Mom, and Lisa
10. Sleep on and off and finally break my fever
I began to feel better as the day wore on when my fever finally broke. I have no idea why I had the fever or where it came from but I felt awful all night long.
So no workout for me today. Guess that's a two-in-a-row for not working out. Not my favorite trend but I'll deal with it.
There's always tomorrow...
Today's Goal: Get back to the routine = FAIL (yeah, fever thwarted that. Stupid fever)
Tomorrow's Goal: Take it easy and don't push myself
Calories Consumed: 892
Workout = NONE
So today everything I had planned got thwarted.
My day was planned like this:
1. get up and workout
2. shower
3. pick up mom
4. go to my boob-squish (mammogram)
5. put on deodorant (you can't wear it until after you get your test)
6. work with mom on wedding stuff
7. meet up with Lisa to sort stuff out
8. come home and have dinner with Jon
9. get a good night's sleep
Here is how my day went:
1. got a HORRIBLE night's sleep
2. freeze and feel achy
3. wake up at 6am realizing I feel like crap
4. put on extra socks because I'm so cold
5. wake up at 6:05am realizing I really feel like crap
6. decide at 6:15am to finally bite the bullet and check the thermometer
7. coming to terms with the fact that I had a fever of 100.3 (this is actually high-ish for me since my normal body temp is 97.5-ish usually)
8. decide I have to cancel everything today and just sleep
9. call and reschedule boob-squish, Mom, and Lisa
10. Sleep on and off and finally break my fever
I began to feel better as the day wore on when my fever finally broke. I have no idea why I had the fever or where it came from but I felt awful all night long.
So no workout for me today. Guess that's a two-in-a-row for not working out. Not my favorite trend but I'll deal with it.
There's always tomorrow...
Today's Goal: Get back to the routine = FAIL (yeah, fever thwarted that. Stupid fever)
Tomorrow's Goal: Take it easy and don't push myself
Calories Consumed: 892
Workout = NONE
Thursday, January 21, 2010
Day 59 - Family and Fighting fatigue
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
So today I went to hang out with my sister-in-law Carrie. She's pretty amazing. I don't know how she runs the household with 4 boys AND my brother.
I love my brother. He and I did not get along when we were growing up. We had completely different interests but as adults we definitely respect each other's accomplishments.
But, this is the first time I've heard my brother tell me how "floored" he was by my talent.
I can't begin to tell you how much that meant to me. Carrie and I were talking about the film and about the voiceover demos. She hadn't heard them yet.
I pulled up the website: www.aligoodmanvo.com and she heard the 2 demos. She was so complimentary! Then I showed her the photos from the film (Becky I'm totally going to add some photos on here. I'm just waiting for a day when I have more than a few minutes to really pull some good ones out!)
When I got home and worked out, I got a call from my brother. This is not usual. We don't talk on the phone or even text. But we just know the other has our back, you know? Anyway, getting a call from him to just tell me how impressed he was and how much he really wants me to succeed just made my entire day!
I was on cloud nine! :) Yay for family and for brothers and for sister-in-laws! Happy!
As far as food and working out, I feel like I did alright today. Could have done better with strength training but I'm not altogether unhappy with the progress.
I feel as though I'm really fighting fatigue. I can't seem to get a decent amount of sleep. I blame the mattress and pillows and everything, but I really wonder if it's something else within me that's just not letting me rest properly.
I'm always stressed about money and work and whatnot, but I really wonder if changing my life is now bringing up crap I didn't realize wasn't worked out. Or something.
Lots to think about.
Today's Goal: Get some work done with Carrie (my sister-in-law) and get 40 min. cardio = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: 60 oz of water, baby!
Calories Consumed: 1048
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
42 minutes jog/run
(1 - 10 minute sprint; 3 -1 minute skaters)
8 minutes cool down/ stretch
Strength Training:
60 push ups
50 regular crunches
50 reverse crunches
50 oblique crunches (each side)
So today I went to hang out with my sister-in-law Carrie. She's pretty amazing. I don't know how she runs the household with 4 boys AND my brother.
I love my brother. He and I did not get along when we were growing up. We had completely different interests but as adults we definitely respect each other's accomplishments.
But, this is the first time I've heard my brother tell me how "floored" he was by my talent.
I can't begin to tell you how much that meant to me. Carrie and I were talking about the film and about the voiceover demos. She hadn't heard them yet.
I pulled up the website: www.aligoodmanvo.com and she heard the 2 demos. She was so complimentary! Then I showed her the photos from the film (Becky I'm totally going to add some photos on here. I'm just waiting for a day when I have more than a few minutes to really pull some good ones out!)
When I got home and worked out, I got a call from my brother. This is not usual. We don't talk on the phone or even text. But we just know the other has our back, you know? Anyway, getting a call from him to just tell me how impressed he was and how much he really wants me to succeed just made my entire day!
I was on cloud nine! :) Yay for family and for brothers and for sister-in-laws! Happy!
As far as food and working out, I feel like I did alright today. Could have done better with strength training but I'm not altogether unhappy with the progress.
I feel as though I'm really fighting fatigue. I can't seem to get a decent amount of sleep. I blame the mattress and pillows and everything, but I really wonder if it's something else within me that's just not letting me rest properly.
I'm always stressed about money and work and whatnot, but I really wonder if changing my life is now bringing up crap I didn't realize wasn't worked out. Or something.
Lots to think about.
Today's Goal: Get some work done with Carrie (my sister-in-law) and get 40 min. cardio = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: 60 oz of water, baby!
Calories Consumed: 1048
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
42 minutes jog/run
(1 - 10 minute sprint; 3 -1 minute skaters)
8 minutes cool down/ stretch
Strength Training:
60 push ups
50 regular crunches
50 reverse crunches
50 oblique crunches (each side)
Monday, January 18, 2010
Day 56 - Naps and Crankiness
Sunday, January 17, 2010
So today was another awesome day of filming. I'm so grateful to be doing this work. I'm proud of it and very excited to be a part of such an amazing production.
That said: I did better today. I was able to make a better approximation on my calories.
I was really cranky though. Sorry Jon! I definitely took it out on him at first. I did, however, apologize. I'm getting better at recognizing when I'm being inflexible and even somewhat belligerent. I'm getting better at saying "I'm sorry".
I took a nap and got up later and decided I absolutely HAD to do SOME kind of workout.
I settled on watching a West Wing and doing some cardio. It was something. Given the schedule of insanity I've been on I really commend myself on getting SOME workout in. Hopefully if we wrap a bit earlier tomorrow I can get home and get a better workout in.
Today's Goal: Get more water in = SUCCESS (I doubt I got the entire 80 oz. But I did drink a lot of water).
Tomorrow's Goal: Try and jump into the full routine if possible
Calories Consumed: 1049
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
40 minutes jog/run
8 minutes cool-down/stretch
So today was another awesome day of filming. I'm so grateful to be doing this work. I'm proud of it and very excited to be a part of such an amazing production.
That said: I did better today. I was able to make a better approximation on my calories.
I was really cranky though. Sorry Jon! I definitely took it out on him at first. I did, however, apologize. I'm getting better at recognizing when I'm being inflexible and even somewhat belligerent. I'm getting better at saying "I'm sorry".
I took a nap and got up later and decided I absolutely HAD to do SOME kind of workout.
I settled on watching a West Wing and doing some cardio. It was something. Given the schedule of insanity I've been on I really commend myself on getting SOME workout in. Hopefully if we wrap a bit earlier tomorrow I can get home and get a better workout in.
Today's Goal: Get more water in = SUCCESS (I doubt I got the entire 80 oz. But I did drink a lot of water).
Tomorrow's Goal: Try and jump into the full routine if possible
Calories Consumed: 1049
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
40 minutes jog/run
8 minutes cool-down/stretch
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Day 50 - Listening to my body and trusting my body
Monday, January 11, 2010
So today was a day I did nothing. Seriously. I did nothing. I slept in pretty late. Considering shooting finished at about 5:00am this morning, I realized I needed to rest.
Jon and I had a bunch of errands to run after he went to work.
We did none of them.
As a matter of fact, he hadn't been feeling well all weekend, so he took the day off and just rested too. I don't think we left the bed for more than 30 minutes. We were both exhausted and just needed a reboot.
I had planned to get up and workout later in the day.
Yeah, that didn't happen.
I just couldn't get the energy up.
So, I guess today became a recovery day.
I'm trying to give myself some latitude. I know being up all night and changing my sleep schedule can mess me up for a while. When I worked at 4:00am at Starbucks I'd have to go to sleep at 9:00pm to be able to function the next day. Then after being cut I'd have to go home and take a nap. I was always tired.
I know I've been on a great track working out almost 6 days a week every week. I don't want to get off-track. It's so easy to just let myself "take a day". I don't want to fall back into a bad habit.
I'm learning to just trust myself and my body. I do feel better knowing I've worked out, so the rush I get from having DONE my workout will help me keep up the good habit, right? And when I do need a break because my schedule is making me exhausted, I just need to give myself that time to rest. I need to trust myself a little more.
It's hard to do that. Especially when I've "failed" myself so many times before with my workouts. I tend to come back but it's usually after a long break and the inconsistency yields little results.
But, I trust myself this time. This time I am using only me (and YOU via this blog). I'm not using any gimmicks or helpful things other than my desire to live my best life.
So, today I forgive myself and move on. Tomorrow is another day.
Today's Goal: Drink at least 60 oz of water and take my multi-vitamin = Fail/SUCCESS (I think I drank 40 - 50 oz...maybe )
Tomorrow's Goal: Back on the workout schedule - cardio and weights and use BL9* to really motivate me if I need it.
Calories Consumed: 901
Workout: NONE = recovery
*BL9 = The Biggest Loser season 9 - GREAT motivator!
So today was a day I did nothing. Seriously. I did nothing. I slept in pretty late. Considering shooting finished at about 5:00am this morning, I realized I needed to rest.
Jon and I had a bunch of errands to run after he went to work.
We did none of them.
As a matter of fact, he hadn't been feeling well all weekend, so he took the day off and just rested too. I don't think we left the bed for more than 30 minutes. We were both exhausted and just needed a reboot.
I had planned to get up and workout later in the day.
Yeah, that didn't happen.
I just couldn't get the energy up.
So, I guess today became a recovery day.
I'm trying to give myself some latitude. I know being up all night and changing my sleep schedule can mess me up for a while. When I worked at 4:00am at Starbucks I'd have to go to sleep at 9:00pm to be able to function the next day. Then after being cut I'd have to go home and take a nap. I was always tired.
I know I've been on a great track working out almost 6 days a week every week. I don't want to get off-track. It's so easy to just let myself "take a day". I don't want to fall back into a bad habit.
I'm learning to just trust myself and my body. I do feel better knowing I've worked out, so the rush I get from having DONE my workout will help me keep up the good habit, right? And when I do need a break because my schedule is making me exhausted, I just need to give myself that time to rest. I need to trust myself a little more.
It's hard to do that. Especially when I've "failed" myself so many times before with my workouts. I tend to come back but it's usually after a long break and the inconsistency yields little results.
But, I trust myself this time. This time I am using only me (and YOU via this blog). I'm not using any gimmicks or helpful things other than my desire to live my best life.
So, today I forgive myself and move on. Tomorrow is another day.
Today's Goal: Drink at least 60 oz of water and take my multi-vitamin = Fail/SUCCESS (I think I drank 40 - 50 oz...maybe )
Tomorrow's Goal: Back on the workout schedule - cardio and weights and use BL9* to really motivate me if I need it.
Calories Consumed: 901
Workout: NONE = recovery
*BL9 = The Biggest Loser season 9 - GREAT motivator!
Monday, January 11, 2010
Day 49 - Filming and Freezing
Sunday, January 10, 2010
So today was the first day of filming! Glorious and wonderful filming! I cannot tell you how excited and happy I am to be a part of this incredible project.
The crew and the cast and the whole thing was amazing. I cannot wait until next weekend!
However, we were shooting outside in below freezing temperatures. While in this scene I was able to wear a coat and scarf, my toes nearly froze off because the cheap boots I got are essentially made out of plastic.
The amazing crew ran to get me toe-warmers. They helped for a bit. But, seriously, I have to find a better way to keep my toes warm. Put the foot warmers on BEFORE I get cold, maybe... :) Also: better socks!
Other than that little craziness, I feel like the luckiest girl!
I cannot say enough awesome things about this experience. It is everything about why I am an actor. Love! LOVE!
During the day I tried to sleep as much as I could. I purposely cleared my schedule so I could get some rest, get in some cardio and just relax before shooting.
Same thing goes for tomorrow. Our call time: 11pm Sunday night. Wrap time: 5:00am Monday morning! [yawns]
G'night!
*for those of you interested:
www.fallawayfilm.com
Today's Goal: Get in some cardio and get some sleep during the day = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: drink water (at least 60 oz) and take my multi-vitamin
Calories Consumed: 924
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
40 minutes jog/run
(1 - 5 minute run/jump rope sprint; 5 - 1 minute skaters)
8 minute cool-down/stretch
So today was the first day of filming! Glorious and wonderful filming! I cannot tell you how excited and happy I am to be a part of this incredible project.
The crew and the cast and the whole thing was amazing. I cannot wait until next weekend!
However, we were shooting outside in below freezing temperatures. While in this scene I was able to wear a coat and scarf, my toes nearly froze off because the cheap boots I got are essentially made out of plastic.
The amazing crew ran to get me toe-warmers. They helped for a bit. But, seriously, I have to find a better way to keep my toes warm. Put the foot warmers on BEFORE I get cold, maybe... :) Also: better socks!
Other than that little craziness, I feel like the luckiest girl!
I cannot say enough awesome things about this experience. It is everything about why I am an actor. Love! LOVE!
During the day I tried to sleep as much as I could. I purposely cleared my schedule so I could get some rest, get in some cardio and just relax before shooting.
Same thing goes for tomorrow. Our call time: 11pm Sunday night. Wrap time: 5:00am Monday morning! [yawns]
G'night!
*for those of you interested:
www.fallawayfilm.com
Today's Goal: Get in some cardio and get some sleep during the day = SUCCESS!
Tomorrow's Goal: drink water (at least 60 oz) and take my multi-vitamin
Calories Consumed: 924
Workout:
Cardio:
3 minutes warm-up
40 minutes jog/run
(1 - 5 minute run/jump rope sprint; 5 - 1 minute skaters)
8 minute cool-down/stretch
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